How has my faith changed over the years?

My faith has been like an upward roller coaster. It goes up and down over the years, but; it’s always improving over time. I see my faith and realize that my God has truly been there with me since day one and I have become to be who I am, not because of my mom, but because of my father which is in heaven. Today we will look at how my faith has changed over the course of my lifetime.

It started bad

            When I first started believing in God, I had a lot of doubt, disbelief, confusion, uncertainty, sin, and ungodliness. I was a mess on the inside, however; My God had grace on me and chose to let me be a Christian and one that would follow him wherever he went. God is the one who has guided me all throughout my life and because of him, I can now look back at my old days and say wow, I was truly lost. Instead of rotting away in a jail for years, God has had the grace to make me wise and smart and a Godly man. I thank him for that. I can still remember all of the bad things that I thought when I was a kid. I had so much hate and violence in my mind and it was just wickedness. Think back yourself to a time when you were young and realize just how bad you actually were, then you’ll realize that it was God who changed your heart and mind.

It’s a process

            Becoming something that shines brighter than any other star is something that only God gives. A lot of times I receive compliments from people telling me what a respectful man I am or what a gentlemen I’ve become, it’s because of God. God is the reason why I can smile at night and sleep peacefully. Once God puts that seed in your heart to be good, then you have the choice to enact upon it. So, if God puts it in your heart to follow him, then by all means you must follow him. It takes time to be able to make the decisions that God wants us to make, so, we have to be patient and expect that God enacts on our hearts in a positive manner. God has always answered in a good way to me, he has never failed and the more I grow older I see that God has always protected me from everything.

Prayer is essential

            The praying man is a strong man, so it’s important for us to pray. I remember a few of my prayers that I said in the middle of the night. I know that humans don’t even know how to pray, so, I prayed to God to give me prayers, prayers that are holy and righteous because I wanted to be a righteous man. I prayed to God to make me a holy man, and I know he’s still working in me but I am not who I once was. Who I once was, was someone arrogant and selfish. I was something to not look at, so, God changed who I was. I listened to my preachers and teachers and they developed who I was until I became who I am today.

My God gave me the heart to withstand all those years

            God gave me the heart to withstand all of those years of hardship and pain. I remember a few times I thought about suicide, however, I never enacted upon it because I said to myself that if God ever wanted me dead then I would be dead and so I’m not dead now so I assume that God wanted me alive. So now I dedicate my life to God because he has allowed me to live, I trust in that.

Never give up on God

            God has always had your back, so why on earth would you give up on him? He has always been there for people, he loves those that love him and he is righteous. Trust that he hasn’t let you down and he will guide your feet.

            I know as Christians we have heard these words over and over again. We hear that we aren’t supposed to give up on God and we’re supposed to trust in his word always. We need to develop and meditate on those words and always continue to fight the good fight. Thanks for listening, this has been German Gonzalez