I will not worry! (A rant)

I have so many things to worry about. I need a job that can pay the bills. I want a wife and kids. I need a car. I want to serve God with my music. I want God to fix my life etc. etc. However, in the bible, God specifically mentions not to worry about anything but in everything pray. So, even though I have a million and a half things that I should worry about, I won’t worry. I know that it’s difficult for me to do so, but worrying will not pay the bills, make me graduate college, pass my tests, get my album heard, or get myself a wife and kids. I need to work at those things. I need to work hard and not give up even when things look bleak and bad.

            I REFUSE TO WORRY!  There I said it in bold letters so that means that I’m shouting! I will not worry! My God has my back and I can trust in him to bring comfort in my life. But you know what? Reading over my list of worries I realize that it’s a little more complicated than just wanting God to “fix your life.” Of course I want God to fix my life but in reality I just want money. I want money, fame, fortune, and those aren’t good things. I think to myself that if I pray hard enough, then God will answer my prayers and make me rich and famous. I should know that those things are deceitful and to not want them. I know that fame and fortune are corrupt things if they’re not for God. God wants people to chase after him not money. I guess I just haven’t let go of that chain yet. God has set me free from that chain, now it’s up to me to drop it. Just thinking about what it would be like to just not think about money for one day, really has me feeling free. I am free from money because God provides that and I don’t have to worry about where my next meal will come from or having a car that will get me from point a to point b, or even having a house, God will provide these things if I pray and if I stay true to him. I guess this is sort of a confession of mine.

            Well guys that’s it for this one. I hope that I have given you guys a relatable point of view in my worries and trials. I know that God would want me to start not thinking about money but instead worry about him. Thank you all so much. Read your bible, pray, go to church, and love God. German Gonzalez, signing out.