The times when I almost quit on God

Quitting God is never an option, however, when you are new to the faith, things can get overwhelming. From Satan’s fiery darts to your very own sin, the things that happen in life can and sometimes will separate us from God. I am no different from the rest of the world. Regrettably, there have been times in my life where I just wanted to quit God. Why? Well life got hard, life’s burdens were consuming me, and I just couldn’t take it anymore. Let me tell you a few times when I wanted to quit on God and how I bounced back to become an even stronger Christian. Let’s start.

In elementary school

            I’ll be honest here, I was often times bullied all throughout school. I was bullied because of many different reasons but that doesn’t matter. What happened was that when I was in fifth grade, when everyone was bullying me, I tried to commit suicide. I almost committed suicide because I couldn’t handle the bullies anymore. Everyone just kept on picking on me and I couldn’t find any relief. So, I said THERE IS NO GOD. Of course that was wrong, but when I tried to kill myself, that’s when I heard the voice of God whispering to me, stop, and so I stopped. I didn’t realize that it was God who was stopping me at the time, I just kept on telling myself that God knows what to do and if God wanted me to be dead, then I would be dead. So I didn’t kill myself.

            I always tried my best to be friendly to everyone I ever met, but it seems like no one ever wanted to be friendly to me. So, I just kept on ignoring them and I decided to keep doing what I was doing. Eventually those same bullies would turn to be the people who were clapping for me at concerts and people who would be asking for encores. At that point in time, I knew that God had given me victory.

When I was in a hospital

            These were my lowest times in my life. They happened to be during the time when I was at my peak too. But the times that I had been in the hospital were life changers for me. I never want to visit another hospital ever again, but I know that it’s not a possible goal for any human to not go to the hospital ever again.

            I can’t even remember the last time I was in the hospital but I remember that it was during an important time in my life. I kept telling myself that if only God would hear my voice and hear the fact that I want to get out of the hospital. God of course did hear my voice, however, I found out the reason why God wanted me in the hospital. The hospital with all of its infirmities, brought me closer to God. Imagine that! Something that often times separates people away from God, brought me closer to God. Writing in this blog, I realize that in all of my lowest points in my life, God brought me closer to him.

When I have money

            It is something peculiar and strange. You would think that money and being blessed in that sense would actually bring you closer to God, you would think that having blessings would help you to build a relationship with God even stronger than before. Well for me, money is like a double edged sword. It’s powerful and great, but it can hurt you.

            I remember the first time I got a job that paid 18 an hour and I was working 30 hour weeks, I kept lying to myself saying that I would give a lot of it to the church. Sure enough, I never once thought about giving it to the church while I was earning that much money. I kept thinking about spending and saving it for my own personal use. Isn’t that something?

Moving forward

            I feel like I have to find a balance between being blessed and being in the grind because it’s not like I was meant to have a problem free life. I know that this life can bring a lot of problems, the only thing that I can ask of God is to guide me to be a good and faithful Christian while that rain pours on. I can only ask that God help me in my dark times, I don’t know how that help will be, but I know that God will give me what I need when I need it.

            Thank you guys for listening in on this blog post. I hope that I have been an encouragement and inspiration to you guys. Please read your bible, go to church, pray, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, and subscribe and I will see you all next time. German Gonzalez, signing out!