Some good news

Actually a lot of good news. They all begin with help from God. If you’re new to this blog, please give me a thumbs up and also subscribe to my blog on WordPress. If you want to follow me on twitter hit me up @germangonz23. Anyways, let’s get started with the good news.

I’m going back to college!

            I have always dreamed about going into college. I never really understood or grasped the severity of how important education was when I was growing up, I just got good grades and moved on.

            However, when I was a junior in high school, I got into some trouble. I started having really bad mental health episodes and things just got bad. I went into a depression and I suffered with a few mental disorders.

            I attended college, however my mental health episodes were in the way of me completing my degree. I kept having episodes, was more concerned about my emotions, had racing thoughts, was getting angry and sad all the time and ultimately all of that hurt me in my grades.

            Now though, I have learned a few things in life.

            About a year ago, my dad had a really serious talk with me. He said, “son, you can’t let your emotions get the better of you.” I can’t recall all of the words that he said, yet they made an impact in my life. I quickly started to refer to the bible because I am Christian and I found verses that supported what my dad had taught me.

            I thought that I had learned my lesson, so I started to fight my emotions. My emotions were a rollercoaster of inspiration, hope, anger, sadness, high’s, and lows.

            So, I wanted to prove to myself that I was ready for the work load of college and that this time I wasn’t going to let anything stop me from getting my degree, this is where this blog comes in.

            I said to myself, “If I can write and work in this blog for an extended amount of time, I will be ready for college.” Sure enough, I set my mind to it and with the help of God, I have completed seven whole months of writing in this blog almost every single day. I write sometimes three times a day because it’s needed.

            Also, my boss has given me certifications to further the development within the job and I have certified myself in social media management, peer recovery specialist, and mixing music. I am so grateful for these things.

            I have explained my situation to a counselor over at the community college that I want to attend and he approved! He now wants me to fill out some more paperwork, get all supporting documentation, and submit it, this will give me my financial aid.

            I am so blessed to have this opportunity. I thank God for this opportunity, I hope that God will be the one with me while I study, I hope that God will guide me towards my degrees because God knows it’s my dream.

I have committed

            That’s not the only thing that I have committed to in the past few months. I have also seriously committed to my work.

            Just recently I have been acting as the social media dude over at my company. My boss has me in  charge of the blog of the company and also the social media accounts.

            It has been 7 whole months, and I’m still going at it.

I am getting right with God

            The first and foremost thing that has changed in my life has been my relationship with God. This has all been a journey ever since my first hospitalization. My first hospitalization, I started to say to myself that I need God. I said to myself that God is my priority. If I can get my relationship with God good, then all of my life will fall in order.

            About two months ago, I started a spiritual journal and I said let me commit to this journal and write in it so that way my relationship with God will improve. I started to write and actually it was supposed to be a prayer journal at first, but then I moved on to a spiritual journal because I found that I could include different things in that journal and that it didn’t just have to refer to prayers. I started writing songs, prayers, hopes, dreams, things that I wanted God to do, thoughts about the day, etc. etc.

            I will admit that I haven’t started to go to church, but I will and I will start going. When I start going, this time it will be permanent. I have given myself hope for these things and ultimately God has given me hope for these things.

            I pray all the time that God will continue to work hard in my relationship with him and I trust that he hears my prayers.

            Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. I hope that I have been an encouragement and a hope to you guys. Please pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, and subscribe. I will see you all next time. German Gonzalez, signing out!