How God helped me to live

God helped me to live through many manners. From actually putting life inside of me, to keeping me from making bad decisions, God was always there and he helped me to just always be there.

            God always helped me no matter what and no matter what I was going through, God was there.

            With that being said, let’s talk about how God helped me to live.

God helped me to get through bullies

            I remember back when I was a kid, I would always get bullied. You have no idea how many times I wanted to grab a gun and just kill all of the kids that were in the school.

            However, during those times of desperation, my mom always told me to pray to God for all of my problems.

            My mom told me to pray to God for all of my problems, so I did and for some reason, the only thing that I could do was just smile. No matter what the kids said, I would just smile. No one could take that from me.

            Years later I look back to all of the kids that were my bullies, some of them are drug addicts, some of them dropped out of school, some of them died, some of them just never amounted to anything, and I can’t help but to remind myself that it was God who was there.

            God was the one who was watching everything happening and he was the one who took vengeance.

            I remember a few times, some of my old bullies actually went up and asked ME to work with ME! Can you believe that? These guys were so desperate that they needed to talk to the old kid who they used to bully and ask them for a job.

            You have no idea how sweet that tasted.

            And honestly some of those scars are still there, but life has scars. Life has its ups and it’s downs and I’m no different.

            Yeah I’ll be honest with you, I still feel anger and a lot of anger, but writing in this blog helps. The Lord is the one who is providing a way for me to get rid of my anger. The Lord is the one who is taking away this wrath.

            I thank God for it.

Praying to God helps a lot. I’m not saying that something mystical happens every time I pray to God, but in a way it does. I’m not saying that I feel like a power over me whenever I pray to God.

            But rather, it works.

            Actually, I recently started to pray to God to take away my wrath. I know that this wrath is unrighteous. I know that this anger needs to be taken away. So, I asked God to take away my anger and right now, that anger is going away.

            I really feel anger, but it’s nowhere near the amount that it was before.

            I honestly don’t want to carry this anger to my grave, so if you guys please pray for me, I would greatly appreciate it.

However, it’s God’s mission that needs to come first

            Even though those bullies did hurt me, I don’t want ill will of them. But rather, I want them to get to know God. I want God to be in their lives all throughout their lives.

            It hurts, but if they find God in their life one day and end up in heaven, that’s what needs to happen first.

            I know my time will come, where I will enjoy the spiritual rewards that I sowed of myself from the time that I was a childhood, but hopefully I could just someday see relief.

            I don’t want this anger in my heart all the time. I want God to bring me relief. I want God to one day just give me relief.

            To any of my old bullies out there, I know who you are and you know who you are. For all the times that you called me ugly, for all the times you called me a nerd, for all the times you said I was too skinny, for all the times that you scarred me, I forgive you. And I hope that God can forgive you too. That’s what God would want.

            I wish that one day all of those bullies could read that.

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            I sure hope that I have inspired some people to keep pushing past their bullies. Remember don’t take vengeance on yourselves but rather, let the Lord take vengeance for you. Remember to always be slow to wrath. Remember that God is with you no matter what happens.

            If you want to go to heaven, then believe in Jesus and Jesus will get you into heaven.

            Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. I hope that I have been an inspiration and a hope to you all. Please pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, subscribe, and I will see you all next time. German Gonzalez, signing out!