Diary Entry

For some reason, all these days, I have been thinking about all of the mistakes that I’ve done. I’ve been thinking about all of the errors that I’ve committed and I can’t help but to feel a heavy burden on me.

            I feel powerless and hopeless because of the mistakes that I’ve done.

            I keep reminding myself of all the things that God promises, but understand that it’s hard to believe in that when you’re thinking these things.

            I am praying, not as consistently though, I’m probably praying 2 times a week sometimes. And that’s on my own. I need to be more consistent though. I can’t just treat God like another aspect of my life that can come and go as freely as it pleases.

            God is not that, God is more! God is the center of my life and I should treat him as such.

            Sometimes I feel like if I don’t pray for that day, then God will curse me for not praying.

            Sometimes I feel like I have to be perfect in order to be a Christian. However, that’s not true. God doesn’t ask us to be perfect but rather that we try our best to listen to him.

            I’m going to try and pray to God every day starting tonight. I am going to write down all of the things that I need to pray for and I will pray for them.

            I really don’t want to spend my days without prayer. I want to pray every morning and night.

            Why? Well because I remember I was reading in the bible that basically says that only the heathen don’t consult with God every day.

            I can understand that.

            I really want to come out with an album, however, I feel like right now I’m just not making it enough in order to make that album.

            I feel like I need to bootstrap the entire thing on my own, but I know that I don’t need to do that. God will be the one to help me financially when it comes time to make my album.

            I love blogging and right now I’m starting to receive views, but I’m not making enough views to offer me a paycheck.

            In all honesty I really need more and right now this blog isn’t cutting it.

            I feel a little discouraged about my blog, but I will keep writing in it because I know that this blog is something good, some of the rare good things that are on the internet.

            I know that this blog is a good thing because I am sharing the gospel with the world. I know that God would want me to do so.

            I’m not going to stop writing in this blog, but if you guys could just tell your friends about this blog, I would greatly appreciate it, I really need to start making something out of this blog.

            I know that I shouldn’t worry about the finances because God will always provide, but I sometimes do worry.

            I’ve been missing church lately. I was going to church faithfully for a few months, but then my car broke down and we haven’t been able to go to church at night.

            It’s working again right now, but I just recently started to go back to church. I feel like if I don’t do the things that God wants me to do, then he’s going to condemn me. I know that’s not true, but it just feels like he is.

            I must add that God is not a condemner. God doesn’t wait until you mess up in order to strike a lightning bolt at you. God knows that there are a wide variety of things that can affect our decision and therefore, God is righteous as well.

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            I sure hope that I have given an avenue for people to escape to. I know that life can be difficult at times, but you have to trust in God that God is doing the right things all the time.

            If you want to go to heaven, then believe in Jesus and Jesus will get you into heaven.

            Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. I hope that I have been an inspiration and a hope to you all. Please pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, subscribe, and I will see you all next time. German Gonzalez, signing out!