My not so bitterness towards the world

Hey everyone! So today, I wanted to share with you all something that I realized today. 

It’s something a little deep that happened to me and that I kind of sort of had an epiphany in my life. 

Before we go into it, let’s have our moment of silence. 

At this time, I would like all of us to take a moment of silence and pray to God to help us to become the people that he wants us to become. Take a minimum of 5 minutes and pray to God to help us to not be bitter. Ask God to help us to love and to endure all the way until the end. 

Now back to the show

The Epiphany

The Epiphany that I had was that this world is really cruel and it can do horrible things to you. 

And it could make you just straight up bitter. 

I actually work in the mental health field. 

And I was walking by the bus stop. 

What happens is that my Job is actually really close to a bus stop, which is close to my house. 

And so I was walking by this bus stop and I noticed this guy that used to come into my job. 

He was really nice up until about 8 months ago. 

What happened was that we had to kick him out of my job because he was misbehaving badly. 

We even called the cops on him. 

And so he was banned from coming into my job. 

And here I am walking by him at the bus stop. 

So it’s been like 5 months since he was banned and I thought that he would say hi to me or be smiley or be friendly because it’s been some time and things have mellowed out. 

But no, he just looked at me in a menacing way. 

And then just stared my down until I walked away. 

I didn’t get it, I had a good relationship with him up until that day. 

I never had any troubles with that guy. My coworker just said that he just started acting up one day and he wouldn’t stop. 

He was always a really friendly dude. 

But what happens is that something personal of his happened and then he just became bitter towards the world. 

And I saw it, no one had to explain it to me. 

And it got me thinking. I was once like that.

And to be honest with you, sometimes I still am like that. 

Sometimes I don’t want to do anything with the world. Sometimes I just want to be alone and be alone forever. 

Sometimes I want nothing to do with people because people hurt you. 

However, because of God, I am reminded that there are a lot of things that could happen as to why someone could hurt you. 

I learn that there could be miscommunications, there could be loss of relationships, there could be a million things that could happen that could cause someone to be angry at the world forever. 

And honestly, we were never meant to love the world. 

We were never meant to love everyone.

And honestly, I thank God that I’m not bitter towards the world. 

I pray that I can still love the same way towards everyone the same way that God wants me to love. 

I pray that if I fall, then God could pick me up. 

Having said that, there is a sort of caveat

I actually am a little bitter, but in a good way. Why? 

Because this bitterness actually drives me more towards God. 

Maybe I shouldn’t say bitter, but this whole conflict that I have in my heart makes me want to forsake all of my dreams and chase after the dreams that God has given me. 

It makes me want to forget about all of the bad things in life and just look straight on to God. 

It makes me want to serve God further and further. 

And you know what? I think part of that is my fault. 

There is a verse in the bible and it has Jesus talking.

And it states, “Ye cannot serve two gods at the same time or else you will grow up to love one and hate the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.”

Now this verse is directly speaking about money. It’s trying to say that you can’t serve money and God at the same time. 

However, it’s something interesting that Jesus states at the beginning of the phrase. 

He says, “Ye cannot serve two gods at the same time, or else you will grow up to love one and hate the other…” which means that there are other gods besides money that can occupy our lives. 

And we cannot serve them above God.

So, I think that I put the world as my God and I tried to serve the world and God at the same time. And the end product is that I hated the world. 

That’s my thinking.

Because I remember saying to myself that I was going to be a good person growing up. 

And sure enough I became a good person, but a person of the world. 

And I didn’t become a good person of God. Those are two different things. 

However, I tried to serve God and the world at the same time and you know, I ended up hating the world. 

But in a way that’s good. 

Because of this hatred towards the world, I am an upstanding citizen, but an upstanding citizen in a Christian way. Which is different than just a regular upstanding citizen. 

But not only that, I became a person of leadership. I love who I am today and I’m learning to live with other people. These things are important!

I’m not bitter towards the world per se, but rather I just love God more than anything in life and I want to serve God above everything.

Broadcast

I sure hope that I have been an inspiration and a hope to you all. Please remember to pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, subscribe, and I will see you all next time. 

If you want to go to heaven, then believe in Jesus and you will go to heaven. (John 3:16)

Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. 

German Gonzalez, signing out!