Diary Entry: True Diary Entry

Hey everyone! So today, I’m going to go over this blog post called True Diary Entry.

Before we get into it, let’s have our moment of silence. 

At this time, I would like all of us to take a moment of silence and pray to God to help us to become the person that he wants us to become. Take a minimum of 5 minutes and pray to God to guide us more towards him everyday. 

Now back to the show

Diary Entry: True Diary Entry

Hey everyone! So today, I wanted to give you guys a real diary entry. 

The reason why I say a true diary entry is because I’m going to attempt to talk to this diary entry like how I talk in my journal. 

I don’t think that I’ve told you this before, but I talk to my journal like I’m talking to God. 

The reason why I do that is because I am talking to God when I write in my journal. 

When I write in my journal, I talk about anything and everything that comes to mind.

However, I’m not going to talk about EVERYTHING in this online diary, But I will get a little more intimate with you guys. 

The reason why is because I think that I make some very valid points in my journal. And I love the way that the term diary sounds. To me, a diary refers to a soldier’s diary for when he was in war. 

And I think that a Christian’s war diary would be the best thing to ever see. You would see all of the battles that the Christian goes through on a daily basis. You would see the good that God blesses us with. 

Anyways, I’m going to try and include more “True Diary Entries” from now on. 

And here goes my first

The battle is the Lord’s

The Lord held the battle today. 

I had to go and do some official paperwork and just know that God was there. 

I couldn’t go to the gym today, but whatever reason the Lord didn’t let me go was for my own good, so I trust him. 

I hung around with a friend today, that was a lot of fun. And he liked one of my blog posts. 

I showed him one of my blog posts and he liked it. 

I’m getting a lot of positive feedback from this blog post and I’m glad that I was able to write so well in it. All Glory be to God.

You know, that all my life, I’ve prayed for a wife. 

And to be honest with you, I see why God hasn’t given me a wife just yet. 

I now see that I was very immature in the sense of being with a wife and the Lord has actually saved me from grief. 

Now, I’m trusting in God more so than ever that he will prepare me for when marriage enters into my life. 

Right now, I’ll be honest, I don’t see myself quite ready for marriage.

I know that my pastor and my teachers think that I should probably be looking to get married, but honestly, I doubt myself in a lot of things. 

The first thing that I doubt myself is in God. I’m not where I want to be spiritually in order to have a wife. 

I promised myself about a year ago that if I managed to stay at church and pray to God and read the bible consecutively for one year, then I would start looking for a wife. 

However, I haven’t done that. 

I haven’t done the things that I committed myself to do. 

Also, another thing happened, one of my friends on this blog actually convicted my heart through God that I hadn’t submitted my whole life to God.

And I started to reflect on myself and all of the things that I was going through and sure enough, I don’t think that I had submitted my all to God. 

And I have submitted more of myself to God, but I don’t think I’ve given my all. 

I’m not trying to say that I need to be perfect, but I do need to try and give God my all. 

Right now I’m 26 years old, and I’ll admit, I don’t think that I’m ready to have a wife. 

Financially I’m not ready, emotionally I’m not ready, Mature enough I’m not ready, and most definitely spiritually enough, I’m not ready. 

I know that a marriage requires commitment. I know that a marriage is something greater than myself, it’s an oath to God. 

It’s something holy and good, the last thing that I would want in a marriage is to get divorced. The last thing that I would want in a marriage is for feelings to get hurt or for anyone to get hurt in any way. 

If I were to have kids, I need to be with them in their lives. If I have a wife, I have to stick with her at all costs and all of that is difficult to do. There are a million reasons why someone could just get up and leave a family. 

I don’t want to be that man. I don’t want to be the man that ends up leaving the family. I want to stick with my family all the way until the end and I hope that my wife and kids stick with me. 

And I know that something that is that good needs God right in the middle of it. 

My God needs to be right at my side, guiding me. 

My Job situation

All my life, the Lord has blessed me with work. The Lord has always given me strength in my hands to go out and start chasing work. The Lord has always given me at least 1 job, has on occasion given me two jobs and allowed me to go to college. 

The Lord is great. 

But honestly, it’s not so much more of the job that I’m scared of, it’s my lack of faith in God that I’m scared of. 

Because ultimately, if God wanted to, I could become rich by being a professional wrestler. HAHA! I know that sounds funny but it’s true. 

So, it doesn’t matter the job that I get because I will become the best at it. I’ve always done that. 

It’s just that my lack of faith in God is what gets me and that’s something that I need to work on. 

I pray that the Lord may give me strength to believe in him. I pray that the Lord may give me faith in him. 

Broadcast

I sure hope that I have been an inspiration and a hope to you all. Please remember to pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, subscribe, and I will see you all next time. 

If you want to go to heaven, then believe in Jesus and you will go to heaven. (John 3:16)

Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. 

German Gonzalez, signing out!