Diary Entry: The Lord Answers

Hey everyone! So today, I’m going to share with you all how the Lord answers. 

Before we get into it, let’s have our moment of silence. 

At this time, I would like all of us to take a moment of silence and pray to God to help us to become the person that he wants us to become. Ask God to give us strength to do the things that are difficult in life. 

Now back to the show

Diary Entry: The Lord answers

So, I’ve actually been praying for a few things in my life. 

The first thing that I have been praying for is so that God can actually convict my heart.

What happens is that I lack a sense of conviction towards the Lord and I need help in order to fix that. 

I have been praying to God to convict my heart so that I can actually have conviction towards him. 

I don’t want to say that he’s just magically doing these things. 

But over time through life and experience, the Lord has really convicted me to start following him with all my heart. 

Yesterday for example, I actually admitted that I lacked conviction in him. 

But it’s strange because later on that night, I went to go and pray to God to give me conviction in him.

I don’t want to be apathetic towards God because that’s not how us as humans are supposed to live. 

We as humans are supposed to live with God guiding us towards the right things in our lives. 

So it’s true, the Lord answers because just today, I did something that I don’t normally do with God. 

I actually went and I listened to Christian music at a time where I don’t normally listen to Christian music. 

Usually at the gym, I listen to rap or rock. And even though the songs themselves don’t talk about anything too explicit, It’s not music that a Christian should be listening to. 

However, today I mustered up the strength to put on my Christian playlist. And I made that time for God. 

And I said to myself, “From now on, the gym time will be God’s time.” 

That’s what I said, However I thought to myself again and I said, “that doesn’t make any sense because every time should be God’s time.” 

So I re-assessed my situation and I said to myself, “I have to give God my all. I know that he is good, I know that the world is bad, and I know that I have to follow him because he is real and he is righteous.”

What happens is that there are punishments that God gives to people who try and serve the world and God at the same time, they’re not pretty.

And I don’t want those punishments to fall upon me.

Now, don’t get scared, it’s nothing to worry about. God chastises all of those that he loves so I know that he will show his love towards me regardless of what happens. 

But I still don’t want to fall to the consequences of ignoring God’s lessons. 

I have to convict myself to God and I will. 

If I have God at my side, no harm will come to me. 

In a sense I am scared of the earthly punishments, but I am more scared of the eternal consequences of not listening to God.

Lord, If you just hear me, I want to serve you, please convict my heart to serve you with all that I am.

I recommend that everyone listening to this blog prays the same thing. 

 But the reason why I say that the Lord has answered is because he has put conviction in me today. It’s strange the way that I learned how to have conviction in God, but through a series of life lessons and experiences, I just learned how to have conviction in God. 

I hope that God continues to build the relationship that I have with him. 

Now onto other things

I want to go back to church.

I have been going on and off for the past few months, but I want to stick with it. I don’t know why I don’t end up going. Lack of conviction? Lack of faith? Lack of resources? Maybe a mix of all three? Or is it because of my own sin nature? 

Either way, I don’t want to end up not going to church in my adulthood. 

I know that not every church is perfect, but we have to base our beliefs on the bible principles. 

I don’t expect my church to be perfect, I just expect them to love God and chase after him with all their hearts. 

But that’s not why I’m writing this. 

I pray that God may give me the strength to go to church. Why? There are some other internal factors that prevent me from going to church, I hope God gives me the strength to just overcome those barriers so that I continue to strengthen my relationship with him. 

I’ve been itching to go all of these past Sundays, but I don’t go because of these internal factors. 

Literally for the past like 3 Sunday’s, I could’ve perfectly gone at night.  

But I didn’t.

Part of me doesn’t want to because there are a lot of people out there who always ask me about my job and I’m always bouncing between jobs. I don’t want them to think that I’m some loser who can’t stick with a job. 

Trust me when I say that I’m working to a stable Job, trust me when I say that I’m doing that.

But yeah, it’s some internal factors that won’t let me go to church. I pray that God may give me the strength to go to church regardless of the situation because it’s God that we’re talking about.

I shouldn’t be scared or shy of people who just ask questions.

When David had to fight Goliath, Did he say that Goliath was too big for him? No, he said, “The battle is the Lord’s.” 

I mean I have so many people to look up to all throughout the bible and I don’t even think about them in this instant?

The early Christians were martyred. 

Daniel was sent to the Lions den.

Shadarach, Meshach, and Abednego got sent to get burned in a furnace, and yet there was a fourth one in the middle of them, “One like the son of man.”

Why should I be scared of what people are going to say to me, when all of my heros did 100 times worse things than that and lived?

No, I think that the Lord is showing me how much strength I really need in my life. 

Anyways, Just some thoughts. 

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I sure hope that I have been an inspiration and a hope to you all. Please remember to pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, subscribe, and I will see you all next time. 

If you want to go to heaven, then believe in Jesus and you will go to heaven. (John 3:16)

Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. 

German Gonzalez, signing out!