Musician Diary: The dumb part about being a musician

Hey everyone! So today, I’m going to share with you all something that’s going on. 

Let’s get started. 

The dumb part

So what happened is that when I first started this blog, I actually said to myself, “If I could just get 100 page views a month, I will know that I have done it.” 

I said to myself, “If I could just break the 100 page view a month mark, then I will know that I can succeed at it.” 

And so what happened is that I actually passed that mark relatively quickly.

Like I had hit that mark 6 months after I started the blog. 

And then in a few months from there I hit around 150 and then 192 in a single month. 

And if I’m honest with you each time I hit a new milestone, I said to myself again, “If I could just get to 150, no 200, no 300 in a single month, then I’ll know that I have done it and I can make it doing this blog.” 

And now, a few years later, I have gotten between 500 and 600 views per month for the past 4 or 5 months. 

And everytime I keep incrementing how much I need in order to actually say that I can do it. 

Like just today, I said to myself, “I just need 1,000 views in a month to my blog and then I’ll know that I can make it.” 

It’s dumb. 

It’s funny.

But it’s dumb. 

And don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love everyone of you for looking at my blog, it’s just funny and ironic at the same time. 

I felt like venting today, so I guess that’s why I decided to make this blog post. 

But it’s like I did the same thing for my music. 

What happens is that I have released a few pop songs in the past, and they never got any views or listens on the streaming charts. 

And what happens is that when I released my first Christian song, do you know how many listens I got on Spotify and Apple Music? 

I got 120 Listens!?!?!?!

Like all in one month. 

Which is not much, but it’s way more than what I had ever gotten. 

And I said to myself, I know I can do this, and I know that I can make this work. 

And now, the part is to make the same process again, and repeat until I get the desired outcome. 

But it’s like, it’s the never ending desire for more. 

And I get that I have something beautiful right now, but I don’t want to be coveting either. 

I don’t want to covet after things that are not mine. 

I want to be holy in my ways when I’m doing this music gig. 

And I know that God will guide me to do the things that I need to do. 

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I sure hope that I have been an inspiration and a hope to you all. Please remember to pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, subscribe, and I will see you all next time.

If you want to go to heaven, then believe in Jesus and you will go to heaven. (John 3:16)

Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. German Gonzalez, signing out!