What is my biggest struggle that I am facing in my relationship with Jesus?

Hey everyone! So today, I’m going to share with you all a couple of things that I’m struggling to surrender over to Jesus. 

Let’s get  started. 

My music

I’ll be honest here, I listen to music sometimes that does not glorify God. 

And as a matter of fact it’s quite the opposite of what it does. 

It actually blasphemes God and takes his name in vain. 

However, I will say that I’m getting better because I deleted all of that music from my Iphone about a few months ago. 

And I’ve never been more content with my playlist. 

But the way that it works is that if I wanted to, I could easily look up whatever song I wanted either on YouTube or Apple Music. 

And I know I can’t get rid of all of the music that’s out there, but I end up listening to the same old songs that I once listened to. 

This is a struggle. 

I want to surrender all of my life to God. 

But the thing is that it’s addicting. 

I remember I one time had a friend who to be honest with you, I was trying to be like him for a while. 

I mean this kid was the example of what a Christian should be. 

He lived the name Christian every single day. 

And the thing is that he told me that he quit absolutely all of his vices. 

From the smoking to the drinking to absolutely everything that he ever did but the number one thing that was most difficult for him to quit was the music.

He said, “German, everything was easy compared to the music. The music was the most difficult thing to quit and I quit that as well, but sometimes I fall back to it.”

So what am I? He was an example of what Christians should be. 

And yet the music was the most difficult thing for him to quit. 

I will say that I’m not giving up surrendering my music to the Lord. 

Because this battle is a daily thing. 

And I will not give up on a daily basis.

My work ethic

I will be honest here, I know that I can work harder than what I am working right now. 

Right now I have a part time job and it’s great and all, but I could honestly work harder and better than what I am working right now. 

Right now, I have one part time job, but I could get a second job and work hard in both jobs so that I can double my income. 

I really actually need to do it, it’s just that in my area there are a lot of companies that actually want weekend availability and I could do it, but it’s just that my first job requires weekend availability as well and I can’t work at it because of them. 

But I know that when the right job pops up, I will get it because the Lord is that good and he will provide everything that I need when the time is right. 

My bible study 

So what happens is that I don’t know why, but I actually find it easier to pray to God than it is to read the bible. 

And what happens is that my pastor was once telling me that most of the times it’s supposed to be the opposite. 

It should be easier to read the word of God than it is to pray to him.

The reason is because praying requires humility.

You are coming to the fact that it’s God who you need.

But I find it harder to read my bible. 

It’s not that it’s harder, it’s just that I keep forgetting to read it. 

It seems to me like I just don’t have urgency to read it. 

I will read it like once a week. 

And in fact in my best year, I opened up my bible app 200 different days, so that’s a good news. 

But I would seriously like to read it more because honestly, that’s what God would want. 

Broadcast

I sure hope that I have been an inspiration and a hope to you all. Please remember to pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, subscribe, and I will see you all next time.

If you want to go to heaven, then believe in Jesus and you will go to heaven. (John 3:16)

Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. 

German Gonzalez, signing out!