Have I forgotten about God? I think not but I have hit a bump in the road

Hey everyone! So today, I wanted to share with you all some of the struggles that I have had recently and I think that it’s affecting me right now. 

Let’s get into it.

I’m not sure if I have sinned

What happened is that I took up a new job rather easily. 

And it was full time and working great hours. 

And if I’m honest with you it doesn’t get in the way of church because I could go to church at some time early in the morning and be out by the time that I need to go into work on Sundays. 

It’s no problem. 

But my problem is that I struggle to get up that early and so I end up not going to church on Sundays. 

And to be quite frank with you, I could go to other services that are early in the morning but there are a few other things blocking me.

I could get passed these things. But that’s where I think that I’m sinning. 

I’m sinning because the Lord has provided something extremely good for me and because of my own irresponsibility I’m not going to church. 

Because of my lack in passion for the Lord, I cannot go to work. 

And I hate that about myself. 

I want to go to church in the early morning but because of my own irresponsibleness that I do I end up not going. 

So now, I have missed church for a few weeks now and I just feel horrible. 

I feel horrible because I’m not giving God the attention that I need while also making my job the priority in my life. 

And don’t get me wrong, the job hasn’t done anything wrong, It’s just that I’m messing up. 

So now, I’m faced with a situation where I need to face my problems head on and go to church in the morning and fall asleep early on those days. I have to find some way to do this. 

It’s the only way that I’m going to keep this job because the Lord is my strength in my jobs. 

Honestly Guys, I feel so down and I feel so exhausted but it’s because I’m not going to church, I literally feel my spirit just down. 

I listen to Christian music trying to fill the void, I read the bible and pray a few times a week to try and get some more God in me, but something in me is saying that there is still something missing and it’s church. 

And I know it, God knows it, I know that I need to go back to church in the early mornings but idk. 

I’m going to try and go to church in the early mornings now. But we’ll see what happens. 

There is a reason why I am saying this and why I am confessing it

So what happens is that I just heard about the Burning man festival. 

If you don’t know what it is, it’s basically an immoral and ungodly festival that celebrates ungodliness. 

There’s literally all sorts of sins there. 

And what I saw then was that the bible was telling the truth all along.

Because what happens is that they build up a wooden man and they burn it all the way at the end.

But that’s not the end, there is so much more and I don’t want to mention it here because it’s all inappropriate stuff. 

But just know that they worship this wooden man all the way at the end and I can’t help but to like wonder just about the condition of the man. 

Like the bible says that we are designed to worship.

And if we don’t worship God, then we will worship ourselves. 

So I saw this wooden man and the bible literally says that we will worship images made of wood and stone and all sorts of materials. 

This is literally bible that’s going on right now. 

And so the reason why I’m confessing that I need God in my life, is because that’s what’s getting me down. 

The fact that I haven’t heard a preaching in about a month or so is really what’s getting me down. 

Yes I do pray, Yes I do read the bible, and yes I listen to Christian music, But God is the whole picture not just bits and pieces of it. 

And that’s why I need church, that’s the reason why I need to go to church. 

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I sure hope that I have been an inspiration and a hope to you all. Please remember to pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, subscribe, and I will see you all next time.

If you want to go to heaven, then believe in Jesus and you will go to heaven. (John 3:16)

Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. 

German Gonzalez, signing out!