So, I am currently trying to get back into college. A few months ago I got disappointed because fafsa, which is our way of getting financial aid here in the United States, denied my request to become eligible for financial aid. They said it was because my grades were too low. I understood why, but I really was looking forward to going back into college. Anyways, I get the letter and I kind of gave up. There’s a reason why though I gave up, I gave up because practically everyone was talking to me telling me that all I had to do was just lie about my situation and that way they will grant me my financial aid.
I did not want to do that. I am a very honest person and I don’t care if being honest sends me to a grave, I will be honest, it’s how honest I am.
Anyways, these people were telling me to do whatever it takes to get what I want. However, there is something in the bible that talks about this. The bible says that you can be honest and get what you want. It is possible, it’s not easy, but it is possible because God is the one who is directing the footsteps of everyone. I trust that. This is why I am honest. I am honest because I have hope in God that God will be the one to guide me to the right direction.
So what do I do now that I want to be honest and also want to go back into college.
I will be completely honest with them. I am not going to jeopardize God just because I am looking for something that he can easily provide. God is worth more than that.
So what is the truth?
The truth is, the reason why I didn’t do too well in college was because I was very immature, I kept letting my emotions get the better of me and so I would often times would rather go out with friends, mess around, or just not do my homework.
However, I learned from the bible and my dad that you cannot let your emotions get the better of you. You cannot let your emotions get in the way of you and your responsibilities. I have learned that. I always actually knew that, except I never really grasped just how severe those words are. My teacher one time put it to me in words like this, “German, you understand the topics, you understand the material, why are you failing my class?”
I said, “It just gets hard.”
She said, “I understand it gets hard but if you let hard things bring you down, you’ll go hungry in this world.”
For some strange reason this made so much sense to me. I understood what she was saying. I didn’t apply it, but I understood and it lit a fire in me.
So today
I wanted to prove to myself that I can handle responsibilities without giving up on them. It’s one of the reasons why I started blogging. I wanted to see if I can really commit to working for long periods of time without hesitation.
Sure enough, I have been blogging for nearly 7 months and I haven’t stopped. I am always looking for new material to write about and I’m always working on the things that I need to work on. I am currently trying to make an album and so far I have one song recorded, produced, and mixed, it needs to be mastered and I’m going to get my friend to Master it for me.
Also, I got certified in a few things. I got certified in social media management, Excel, Word, and I am going to get certified in a few other things too but I’ll see. It took work to get certified in excel and I’m so happy that I got certified in it. Now, I’m also trying to get certified in a few other things as well. Hopefully I can and I can prove to myself that I can work. The Lord will be the one to help me.
Right now, I feel really good about going back to college. I feel like this time, I am going to work, I am going to get my scholarships, and I am going to succeed. With the help of God, and by praying every day, I will do those things.
Thank you all for listening in on this blog post. I hope that I have been an encouragement and inspiration to you guys. Please pray, read your bible, go to church, and love God above all else. Like, comment, share, and subscribe and I will see you all next time. German Gonzalez, signing out!
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