God convicted my heart about something

Being a Christian musician is THE BEST THING KNOWN TO MAN! Haha. Of course second to God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, so therefore it would be fourth best. But being a Christian musician is better than having a girlfriend! Better than being rich, better than anything that I’ve ever done in my whole life, I sure do hope that I can make a career out of being a Christian musician.

            With that being said, there is one thing that God has convicted me of regarding my Christian musicianship.

            The thing  that God has convicted me of is that I am not spending enough time writing songs and practicing the guitar for God. Let me explain shall I?

There’s not enough time in the day to write songs for God!

            I do my best to write songs for God day in and day out, but honestly I just can never find the time to actually write songs for him. My days are always so busy and I just don’t know when I can dedicate serious time into making music for him.

            You know it’s funny because back when I didn’t have a job, and I was just chilling in my parents house day in and out, I begged God to give me a job. I just wanted to be a productive member of society. I said and I prayed to God, give me a part time Job that pays the bills and I will write songs.

            Like a month passed by and sure enough I found a job. At a pizza place. It wasn’t a lot of money but it was actually enough for me. My parents were happy too! Literally all I had to do was work and write music and God would have provided the rest, I know so.

            Well I was working and it was actually a little disappointing because it wasn’t a lot of money and so I started looking for another job, meanwhile I wasn’t writing songs because I was too focused on the money. So I said, “God this time I mean it, give me a job that pays the bills and I will write songs for you all day on my days off.” This time, God gave me another job and it paid very well. But I wasn’t writing songs still!

            This time, my excuse was, I’m just too tired to write songs because this job is hard. So I said, “God, if you give me a job that pays enough but is a little easier, I will write songs for you. This time around I got a job in an office and it was a lot of typing and social interaction with the customers so it wasn’t physically demanding. And I still wasn’t writing songs.

            This time I said, God I need a second job, one that is not physically demanding, pays well, is flexible with my schedule, lets me keep my second job and on top of all that, I want to go to college because I believe that my parents want me to go to college. This time around, I got sent to jail and when I came out, my boss welcomed me back in but I had to get a second job.

            This second job was a sales job. It is part time, and its really flexible with my schedule. I was actually able to maintain both jobs and go to college for a semester. I still wasn’t writing songs!

            Now I realize that it’s not the time that I have a problem with, it’s myself that I have a problem with. Because God knows that I’m not going to write songs, the only person that I’m lying to, is myself.

            God knows what I’m going to do if I get the jobs that I want, he gives them to me because he’s trying to show me that it’s really not what I want. He’s trying to show me that I’m only lying to myself and I can’t lie to God.

            I pride myself on being the most honest person in the room, sometimes the whole building, but God convicted me that I’m lying to HIM!!! How can I be honest with everyone except for the one that knows the truth at all times? It means that I’m not honest. And you know what, even though I do tell the truth, I do still tell lies every once in a while and that makes me a liar.

            Now, there is something else that I am curious about. God has made me a musician, it was God who did that not me. He made me a musician for a reason, not vanity. So, if God made me a musician, what was the purpose of making me a musician? What purpose does God have for me to be a musician?

            I would love to write songs. I would love to learn how to write songs, and God has given me gold when it comes to songwriting abilities. He has given me guitar skills, a voice, a blog, writing skills, music theory skills, etc. etc. He has given me the equipment and I do not believe that God gave me these things for vanity. So, the next question is, does God want me to be a Christian songwriter? Does God want me to be a Christian musician? That’s the thing that gets me is that God gives me the things that are needed and then leaves the rest up to me.

             In all reality, I just want to play guitar. But that’s the thing, I only want to play the guitar because it’s fun and that’s not the way to live life either. I need to write songs because I prayed to God to make me a musician and if he made me a musician, then I would write songs for him for the rest of my life. I promised that, I know that I have to do that.

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